Journal Entry 12

-Am I beautiful?
+Yes, you are.
-...as I tear you to pieces?
+No, you're not.

Journal Entry 11

You're the incarnation of an abstract concept: perfection!

Journal Entry 10

-Can't stop thinking about last night!;):p
+Awww, honey :x:x:x
-No, I mean the food was amazing!
+ :|:|

Journal Entry 9

When all people from various social strata and various backgrounds and beliefs compliment you on something, then you know you have a superpower.
Wanna know what my superpower is? Smiling!
Even in the darkest times of my life, when i was more depressed than I'd ever been, people would ask me from where I derived my happiness, and they would all get jealous without knowing about those wounds, those satisfying cuts on my body and on my soul.
I'm still not sure if that's a good thing hiding my true feelings so perfectly when I need to scream it all out as loudly as I can. But that's all the past now. My fake smiles are history. Now I truly am happy, as happy as I could ever be.

Journal Entry 8

You know what I love about life most? Its unpredictability! Even when it wants to make you feel miserable, it srikes hard, won't leave you in suspense. At least that's how it's been for a bipolar me!

Journal Entry 7

We're all approval addicts. It's getting harder and harder to stay where there's no one to admire you.

Journal Entry 6

And I keep wondering , do I really wanna skip a wedding?
And I keep wondering, would I be a beautiful bride?
I just keep wondering if I'Il regret not having worn the stupid white gown when I've grown white hair all over my head.
See what my whitewashed brain does to me? I hate this society & its stupid expectations of me, The expectations I hate but have also internalized.
Will I keep wondering?

Journal Entry 5

I really wanna get outa this filth. So first I need to believe in myself. I need to brainwash myself of this low self-worth I'm used to believing in. I will write here more.

Journal Entry 4

You think I don't have a plan B? How stupid can you be?